Imissyou and Iloveyou

Heyy. So semua mesti sedar kan that I've been clearing all my posts. Reasons? Hurmm To start new I guess Hahahaha And here I am. Once again. Mengadu Hahaha Actually to tell a story Hahaha Well this time, it may be long. So prepare yourself for a story that sounds exactly from novels Hahahaha

So, there's this guy. We start off from being friends. No hard feelings Hahaha But now here I am. Deeply in love with him Hahaha We started to know each other just because we are classmates. Doing homework together. Eat, talk, hang out and do all of other stuff together. But, he had a girlfriend. I mean when we first met. Eventhough I knew he had a girlfriend, I still do have some kind of feeling that I'm trying to deny Hahaha A feeling that I just can't described Hahaha But then, I met his girlfriend. We became friends and I'm terribly sorry for her cause I do have some kind of feelings for him. After that happen, I tried to make some space between us. I try to ignore him. And it certainly works for me. And we're bestfriends :)

After a few months, he broke up with his girlfriend and sadly I'm the last person to know. I felt terribly sorry for him. I listen to him about his broke up process eventhough it was not too often. A few months him being single and suddenly he said that he likes me in a joking way. So I thought it all was a joke. But then I realized from certain people that he was actually serious. At first, I don't want to give a damn about it. But people do encouraged me being with him. And his efforts texting all my girlfriends asking about me. It makes me felt the same feelings I do have when we first met. I mean all the feelings that I can't described hahaha At first I tried to deny it cause I still thought about his ex girlfriend. But as time goes, I can't denied it. I told him that I started to like him and fortunately he said that he felt the same as I am.

We've been so happy. I guess hahaha Yeah. We do have a lot of quarrels. But ever heard people's saying that lovers that love so much do have a lot of quarrels hahahaha I love him the way he is. I love everything about him even it's for the simplest things. I do love him so much. Never thought of losing him Hahaha I overthink too much. Overthinking really hurts me like hell. Overthink means over care Haha Well I've heard a lot of people say that hahaha And I do get upset over the little things. Even the simplest ones. It all happens just for one reason. I love him so much and I seriously didn't want to lose him.

And it happen. I've made the worst mistakes that I actually can avoid. But I'm just too stupid and can't think of anything. And it happens. He'a asking me to give him time which is clearly he's starting to feel that I annoys him. And which is clearly he's trying to avoid me. Well, I do love him so much and for that I don't mind begging for him. I'm begging him not to leave me. And obviously, he do not reply. Well, 1 or 2 replies with 3 to 4 words and its done. But his replies, really makes my day Hahaha I seriously feel like crying which is clearly that I really cried hahaha

And now, I'm literally trying to win him over again. I don't know if it works but I'll keep trying. He just said that he needs time. Not a breakup. He can take all the time he wants and needs. I'll wait. I'll keep waiting even if it take days, weeks, months, or maybe years. I'll wait since he promised me that he won't leave me. Ever. I love him so much and that's why I'm being so clingy as f*cking. I'm hoping he'll forgive me and I'll do whatever it takes to keep him next to me :)

And so, that's the end of my love story Hahaha Pretty long huh Hahaha Well, its complicated. Yeahh. Love do make things become complicated. But if it's not complicated, then the relationship is not worth it Hahaha Wise saying. Is it? Hahahaha I don't know. So, I think I have to end my so called 'story telling' and go to bed. I'm totally exhausted since it had been a very long and hectic day. We'll meet soon on others stories. Bye :)